| Wow, a newest entry |
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| 08:49pm 03/08/2006 |
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mood:  irritated music: None
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My newest entry, Danielle and I are happy together, I got into a fist fight qith Gary and kicked the shit out of Anthony, Mom's accusing me of smoking weed, Im recording my rap cd, getting a job doing demolition, Enrolled in school in september and am going to college to become a child psychologist^-^ |
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| Crap |
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| 08:12pm 24/09/2005 |
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I most likely have a compressed spinal fracture.
Im..finding things out I dont really want to find out...It's...not something I want to know, but oh well...*shrug* I gotta go see a movie so I gotta cut this short, ttyl, bye guys |
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| My day:P |
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| 11:06pm 18/09/2005 |
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mood:  peaceful
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LMFAO today was great, I went horseback riding with Danielle today. I tried riding Chance (The horse I wanna buy)...BAD Idea. I was bucked off of him and he almost landed on my ankle, which would have broken it in at least 2 pieces. I also hit the ground so hard I think I pulled a muscle right under my ass, where my leg joint connects to the rest of my body, so I limp a little:P We went to the riding ring and I was swinging a peice of metal around at a pretty high speed. Again, bad idea. I hit myself in the shin, and now it has swelled twice the size it was and is red and bruised. And THEN, on the way back from the riding ring, (He's being started, so we cant really ride him for long periods of time) I was holding onto the lead, attached to him and I wrapped it around my hand. A bike rider came by, he got spooked and tried taking off, the lead bending the tips of my ring and pinky finger when he tried doing so, I heard a small snap, my fingers went numb and i cant really move them, same symptoms I had last year when I broke my ring and middle fingers in the doorframe in chat. But yes, I didn't ride very much lmao |
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| LMFAO |
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| 02:44pm 18/09/2005 |
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Oh ya, this is fucking great, I tried being happy again and now mom and gary are getting a divorce, isn't that great? |
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| God, My life is perfect^-^ |
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| 01:14am 18/09/2005 |
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mood:  Completely Numb
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Hell, My life'll never be perfect. I've just proved it, whenever Im happy, even for a short amount of time, life takes a turn for the worst and I slip farther into my black hole. Example: I bought a 1984 Cadillac Fleetwood, My first car, I was soooo happy.. Other side of it, I just lost a 7 year friendship between Myles, Ricky and I. I think that pretty much fucks everything over. Another example, this one being a little older: I got close to Adriano, I get taken away from home by child services for a year and dont get to see him. I get back, and our closeness is shattered, and from that point on, I had no father. another example yet again: Im finally happy living in half-moon bay, My life finally seems pretty stable and we get up and move to Victoria. I have to make new friends, Go to a new school, Relocate and adapt again, in the 22 house I've lived in in 14 years at that point and it changes my life, Mostly for the worst, There are things I wouldn't change for the world...but Mostly, my life has gotten worse since we've moved out here...Please people, dont be insulted by what I just said. Are those enough examples for you? or would people like more? Lets just say, I dont think I ever want to be happy again. Im slipping...Im slipping really fast..im so stressed..I feel so broken..but hey, Im not called superman for nothing, eh? Im fine, I am always fine, I always will be fine. |
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| God... |
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| 01:41pm 08/09/2005 |
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mood:  ..Very.. music: none..sadly
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Im sick as living madness..its kinda twisted :P I skipped work today because I felt like vomiting evry time I moved, and my gaiaonline account is doing Ohhhh-kaaay^-^ lol..I've been talking to Emiley who is very, VERY cool lol, I met her at the PNE, and when I go to chilliwack for about a week, her and I shall hang out and Ricky and I and Myles are gunna have lotsa fun doing dumb things..like the old days lmao but yes, Im going to go puke now, so I hope every one has fun doing what they do lol...
p.s. Lyndsi's mean, she bought me orange juice, halls, 2 things of kleenex and The coolest little black journal thing ever, AND she's bringing Ong Bak over later, Im mad at her:P |
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| Im baaack |
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| 01:48pm 29/08/2005 |
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Back yet again for another entry on the journal I havn't been on in a lifetime. I work fulltime as a painter now, I have the best relationship and I miss my Meg and My Marie..we havn't talked in so long and I just miss them both...Sorry guys..there are others I miss but I havn't talked to them in..forever..:( I forgot to add before, I've found out more about who I am and I apologise to everyone I've hurt in the past, And hope people can forgive me..If not, I completely understand why and again, I apologise, and I still love you all:D |
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| Fed up. |
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| 09:51pm 23/04/2005 |
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mood: Fucking Pissed
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Im sick and fucking tired of this fucking bullshit. This family is driving me up the wall and Im on my last fucking nerve. Im either going to fucking walk out or Im going to black out and wake up with blood on my hands. Either way,They'll be fucking sorry when I do so because If I leave, Im never coming back. I got p[laces to stay and I dont give a shit what they say, I'll fucking leave this damn place, because if I dont, Im going to hurt myself or them, and I dont plan on hurting myself again. Im not in the mood for people so you can all fuck off. |
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| Daaamn |
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| 12:08am 05/04/2005 |
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mood: cheerful
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*blows dust off of the site* shit,I havn't been on here for a long ass time..Im SO getting married..no details, dont want the lucky (ya right) woman to know,now do we? :P movin out soon, Im sittin here drinkin pepsi and eating tictacs,,aunt missie moved back in,but now I got nyla,madison's younger sister^-^ YAY!!! I love her so very much, I love them both,And I got a "New' girlfriend, Me and stacey didn't work out,neither did me and lulu or any other girls I went out with, Im a crying shame eh? lets hope this one is the one Im gunna spend the rest of my life with..I got a good feelin about her though:P we've been together a couple months and Im so happy^-^ I love people right now but I need sleep,night peoples |
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| hey people |
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| 02:42am 08/02/2005 |
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mood:  Lovingly angry bastard:P
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havn't added nuthin for a while,anyways, check out my poems at
http://paintedperfectly.com/modules.php?name=Your_Account&op=userinfo&username=HeadStrong
but ya, I got a couple there and I'll be postin more soon, anyways, people, y'all wanna fuck around? suck somethin of mine that none of you could take, then spit, rinse and get a life, for all you others out there, I love you all very much and I'll protect you all, bye guys
Love always,
Superman
a.k.a scruffykins, G.H, Bob, God,{D&C..or...C&D whatever, y'all need to get your eyes checked;)} Dark Heart, Radius, And last but certainly not least,
Coty. |
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| Im happy^-^ |
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| 02:27am 21/01/2005 |
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Damn, Im so happy^-^ its so cool, man this is excellent^-^ paintedperfectly.com is giving me great publicity for everything oh ya, anyone wanna check it out, my username is headstrong, I write alot of stuff there, I got my new rap done,pat,Ian and I all worked on it,check it out and tell me which verse is the best please
I come to teach not to preach soldiers in iraq aint there for peace
they come with dispair and warfare kids in the street with out a care
with out mama and papa there as i sit back and watch the war go on i cant stop thinkin why they
voted for him to carry on i know im a kid but i see the world with a grown mans eyes and in my mind
have the picture of a womans cries and all i can see is my brother stephen in that war for the hethen
i would'nt know what to do if he ever stopped breathin so i smile and hug him and tell him i love him
so me n my homies tell a rap tale foe when that day the hated man fails and kills the world so we
can say on that horrid day that we've failed as we see the bombs and the blood thirsty males planes n
towers and dear fathers and screaming mothers as the canadians die day on day all because of
that horrible day when the twin towers fell and the hundreds of people went to heaven and hell
we lay down flowers and remember this day as september 11 as it burns clear in our minds
and clear our thoughts and pray for the loved ones to come home and for the ones who have not we
lay down flowers and care for the loved ones who have failed and as the sons and daughters brothers
and sister lay 6 feet under i stare at the clouds and for ever wonder what will happen to my army of
brothers and as i take off my hat and fall to my knees i plee to god for peace.....
Chorus
Tears are shed when soldiers lay down their lives, but we ignore the homeless pain and cries, of people who cannot support themselves, when it's mostly the fault of someone else, The messes in the world were created by us, but we wont admit it for we would be crushed.
People go to jail for the death of another, but people wars kill are fathers sons and brothers,
Its murder all around but we dont see it that way, people all around look then turn the other way,
We've destroyed many today, We cry and we prey but we dont stop causing hatred and pain,
Together we're a curse, our race stings like acid rain,
We send soldiers to their deaths as we sit back in comfort, relaxin in our homes with the company of our lover,
While people burn and collapse to never rise again, and all we do is pretend to care for them,
Even as their souls drift apart to hell and heaven, We let the war commence 24/7,
we're gunna have a replay of september 11 if we dont learn to share and control our tempers,
And as people fall every second of the hour, it shows everyone we're nothing but cowards,
We use violence to solve problems but dont get up when we're knocked down,
We use weapons against who the president wants knocked out,
He sits behind his desk and makes us doubt ourselves, Making us think he makes the world go 'round,
Yet without us,He'd have his feet on our ground, being beaten and broken as we pass him around,
We should put HIM on his knees and let him fight for himself, instead of wasting lives That could help others out,
Arrest him for murder and put him on trial, let him deal with the tears of a fallen child.
Chorus
Tears are shed when soldiers lay down their lives, but we ignore the homeless pain and cries, of people who cannot support themselves, when it's mostly the fault of someone else, The messes in the world were created by us, but we wont admit it for we would be crushed.
Now as tha days fly by,Soldier's die and die We ask people if its in tha wrong but
really its up to you to decide,Personally I think bush should getta life, maby stop
all tha hatin and settle down wit his wife, But if we believed in that, it would be a lie,
We ask why so many innocent people gotta die over tha dispute of a couple of men's
pride, But truly if we stop and think, we know why, Because its all for tha prize, It aint
bout soldier's life's, Its bout gettin more population so they can send in more civilians
to die, Do you really think bush gives a fuck about their children and wives? He's to busy
tryin to keep his own ass alive, So now we sit here and strive for tha day to come to see
Bush get down on his knees and plee for forgivness, For this massacre murder spree of
endless tears he's caused for so many fallen children.
whats the best? |
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| p.s. |
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| 04:08am 14/01/2005 |
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I love the new house, I should be getting my phone on monday |
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| ..Im sorry everyone.. |
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| 04:01am 14/01/2005 |
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mood: sad
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Stacey, I know what you did..A bunch of people told me how your going out with ricky behind my back when you hadn't broken up with me.the only question I have is why?
On another note.Opal..if your reading this.I want to apologise,for everything,I was reading up on old conversations and things on the computer..I realise now that I led you to believe I was a great person, that everything would be perfect if you stayed with me..And then I let you go...Im an asshole,you know that? Im a fuckin asshole... Why didn't I see it sooner? Why couldn't I have looked in the mirror and told myself I was making her believe something that wasn't true? How could I have been so insensitive?
How could you fall for it Opal? Im not blaming you..I dont think I even realised I was doing it..but didn't it seem too good to be true? Didn't I seem a little too perfect? well..now you all know that I had hurt someone that truly cared for me and you have all been warned, Im not as good as I may seem sometimes... |
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| We ARE fucking moving |
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| 07:25pm 03/01/2005 |
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FUCK we're moving..this fucking sucks..I HATE THIS!!! our new address is 2557 cook street victoria bc, yo know the rest, I wont be on for a while, but when I am, I'll give everyone my phone number, Ilove you all |
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| Im moving to cook street.. |
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| 08:20pm 02/01/2005 |
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My new address is 2557 cook street.. I dont want to move..Im pissed off, im in a bad mood..Im listening to dre so I dont have to think, Its helping..My life is crumbling under me, I started enjoying life again and now its fucked up..this is why I started smoking weed in the first place..but I dont want to anymore..what do I do? I dont want to do it anymore but I have no way to be happy and enjoy myself again..what the fuck do I do damnit??? |
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| I've lost, I gave up.. |
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| 10:42am 29/12/2004 |
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mood: Softened beyond repair
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*snorts* I give up, I've dropped out, Me, of all people..Im done, Im worn out, I give in... Im sitting here..shaking slightly, my fingers are numb and I cant think, but at the same time, my brain is racing, making me believe I'll never be myself again..I put on an act for everyone to see, to make people happy with who they are, to make everyone think im strong and can take anything they put me through, but im not. im thick skinned, but underneath all of that im soft..im broken inside and have to keep my skin intact. I cant let anyone see who I am inside because i'll be broken down,I wont have my image..I need to make people feel better about themselves, I need to make people think they can take anything, But to do that, I have to show them nothing is impossible first, that if I can do it,so can they,But I dont believe I can do it anymore, I dont believe this is working, someone inserted a small crack in my hard shell and is now prying it open slowly, so they can see my gently pulsating flesh, I cant let them see it, I need to sew it shut and hide it,because if I finally crack, most people around me go down too... |
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